I feel like sharing some poetry I’ve written in the past, be warned though, that most of my poetry is very depression inspired, so very sad. ‘condensed’ to save space.
I wanted to cry everything hurt so much, / Everything hurt so much.
I didn’t know what to say / I didn’t know what to do.
I’d forgotten how to cry / I’d forgotten how to live / I’d forgotten how to die
I wanted to cry/ But I didn’t know how,
Which made me feel worse, / Yet made me feel strong, / It made me weak all at the same time.
I wanted to cry / And I don’t know why.
Things are so bad / Yet they are so good. / I hurt in side I can’t let it go,
even though life is good, / better then it was,
still I wanna cry / but I don’t know why.
Either way I’m crying on the inside / I don’t know where to go, / where should I go;
follow my dreams, / hold them in, hold them back.
don’t know how to get there / make the choices I need
there is no one to help/ no one who can see me
at least not beyond the masks I hide behind
sit alone outside, / watching you through the window clear.
I sit across the river wide, / no way to join, no way to be near
I sit alone and hide / watching full of fear.
not willfully, not of my choice, or need. / but of your choice, to make me feel
unwanted, unneeded, and unworthy. / always excluded, shunned from the fun, games and adventures.
I want to be included, to be a part of the whole, the picture . / I’ve missed out on so much
I want to miss out no more.